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... the personal journal of a very alienated and very anti-Republican/-capitalist social outsider. Her life is still made of misery. Web design and Java don't help alleviate it that much. She likes the trees, the flowers, the silence, the darkness, and her recent lack of appetite.
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| Thoughts are now definitely elsewhere

I walked to the library just about ten minutes ago, and the scenery outside was just… cold and drafty, but… the sky was a pure cerulean blue, and golden and brown and red leaves were falling all over the place… and on the ground, there were swaying patches of intense sunlight and then cool darkness below the trees… and the clouds, although white, had ponderously darker gray shadows underneath, as if they were deliberating on whether to rain…

GAAAAAAAAAH!!!! Scratch all of that out!!!

I just found out TODAY, that Jay Chou’s newest album, Jay Chou on the Run, is being released globally on November 2. Which is five days from today!!!

Jay Chou on the Run

I found a decent post on a Jay Chou news forum describing his new musical direction and what he’s doing with his image for the album… which is, needless to say, COWBOY ATTIRE! I was just perusing Misaki-san’s blog for posts I missed since my brief absence, and she posted the YouTube video for Jay Chou’s newest music video. I must say, I was a bit shocked, but the video was frickin’ awesome!!! American cowboys never looked so good.

Anyway, got to go. I’m going to go hunting at Goodwill for pieces of my Halloween costume. I’ll tell you more about that later.

| My thoughts are always elsewhere

Man, my blog isn’t attracting a lot of hits. I think it’s even managed to hit an all-time low…

Not-very-interesting updates from the last time:

  • I’ve taken up yoga recently.
  • It’s really cold and rainy outside.
  • AP Chemistry is whittling away at my desire to live…
  • The Web site I’m supposed to manage for CBF is temporarily unavailable since the account expired…
  • Public library computers are goddamn annoying.

Meanwhile, my thoughts keep returning to something I wish I could banish from my mind forever. I’d like to write them down, but I don’t even have my own computer at the moment. Goddamn it.

| Nice title for a complete failure, “Eclipse”

(Suitable prologues to this post: my reviews for Stephenie Meyer’s Twilight and New Moon. The current subject is Eclipse, third installment in the series.)

Hands down, this is perhaps the worst book I’ve ever read.

Eclipse

Excerpt from back cover:

In the dead silence, all the details suddenly fell into place for me with a burst of intuition.
Something Edward didn’t want me to know.
Something that Jacob wouldn’t have kept from me.
Something that had the Cullens and the wolves both in the woods, moving in hazardous proximity to each other…

Something I’d been waiting for anyway.

Something I knew would happen again, as much as I might wish it never would.

It was never going to end, was it?

Indeed. When will it ever end?

And referring back to the post title, here is the reason I thought Eclipse was “inappropriately” titled, in the most acute sense of the word:

to eclipse

  1. (transitive) Of atronomical bodies, to cause an eclipse.
    The Moon eclipsed the Sun.
  2. (transitive) To overshadow; to be better or more noticeable than.
    The student’s skills soon eclipsed those of his teacher.

Um, excuse me? This miserable excuse for a novel is incapable of overshadowing anything, unless you count that talking-hooded-monkey-assassin short story that my brother wrote more than a year ago.

Oh, wait, now that I consider it… nope, even talking assassin monkeys are 500 times more entertaining and better-characterized than this load of shit.

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| Show him some respect, please—!

Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad

Behold! The enemy is among us! —————>

OK, OK, I was just kidding. That really is a far cry from my real attitude regarding Iranian President Mahmoud Ahmadinejad’s visit to the U.S. today. For those of you who didn’t read my last protected post (and I really must congratulate you if you managed to crack my top-secret password), I mentioned yesterday that Ahmadinejad was invited to come speak at a forum at Columbia University. TODAY. Yes, today. Here in the U.S.! In New York! Today! So close, yet so far…

Yet, predictably, Ahmadinejad’s visit has already been marred by a round of protests from students and politicians alike. Some, like me, are perfectly willing to allow him to make his views heard. Others have already condemned this event as a “perversion of free speech” and some brilliant politician out there contributed this equally brilliant quote, stating that “There is no excuse to have this madman, this little Hitler who is running around all over the world killing our soldiers. This is immoral. This is outrageous. This is sick.”

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| School started. It sucks.

And I’m having nightmares of accidentally eating meat.

(The alternate title to this post was “Life [the breakfast cereal, not my pathetic existence] is good.” And then as a subheading, I suppose I also could’ve added: “And now with yogurt-coated oat clusters.”)

The brand new 2007-2008 school year started last Wednesday, August 29. I’m in the eleventh grade and I’m taking two AP classes and two “accelerated” courses. It was a little hectic last week because of the different, more compact opening day(s) schedule. I really was too depressed for words.

Wednesday, Aug. 29: Very depressed.
Thursday, Aug. 30: Extremely depressed and devastated.
Friday, Aug. 30: Still devastated but with renewed hope once the weekend began.

And then, after school resumed after Labor Day, it became slightly more bearable all of a sudden. I can only suppose those yogurt oat clusters did something to my dopamine levels.

But! But! There’s something else that’s buoying me up at the moment, although due to my highly self-absorbed and secretive nature, I won’t be disclosing that right now… or at least, until I gather more conclusive information about my subject…

(Note: However fortunate that may sound, don’t get the wrong idea: I’m still determined to hate school this year, like every other year before that, and from here to infinity, to the sky and the stars and the dark matter and the multiverses and the bubble universes beyond…)

Current local library “position in hold queue” status:

Aha! The lines are gradually thinning out…